From Fear to LOVE…

Magic happens when we believe… a heartfelt testimonial.

As a teenager, I always had painful cycles but thought it was normal and up until 2 years ago, I didn’t realize that I had “problems” even though I knew something wasn’t right.

I had my first surgery in 2017 and was told I had Chronic PID but after seeing another specialist last year (2018) I was diagnosed with Endometriosis stage 4. The diagnosis changed but my chances and dreams of having children naturally didn’t. I was told that the only way I could have children was to go through IVF and that I only had a year left of fertility.
How do you even mentally and emotionally prepare yourself for that when you didn’t think that was the only way you would be able to have children and that there was such limited time? I’ve never felt so broken in my entire life.
Last year (2018) we went through some financial trouble and couldn’t afford IVF. I thought for sure this was never going to happen for me. With faith and hope our financial situation turned around but I still needed to “prepare” myself. I was scared. Scared of the emotional toll it would take, scared of wanting this so badly and it didn’t work, or that I wouldn’t be a good mother. We decided to go ahead in August 2019 and I still put it off because I started a new job but I also knew it was just an excuse.
I also worried about what other people might think because we’re not married.

In July 2019 my sister referred me to Hayley. I didn’t think twice. If there was a glimmer of hope that this would help me know what I needed to do, I was going to take it and I felt at peace with it.
The start of my session brought me to tears.
Tears that gave me a sense of relief because I knew exactly what I wanted. There was no question.
During the “scan” Hayley did to see where my blockages were, I could feel her energy. For sure, there were blockages in my tubes. After cutting all my trauma and fears in the session, she did a scan once more and I couldn’t feel a thing.
Her words to me were “you don’t have those issues any more my darling, you’re whole and healthy”.
For the first time, I felt a sense of calm, peace and hope.
I left Hayley with a clear vision of what I wanted and to go ahead with it without any hesitation or fear. We immediately made an appointment with the fertility specialist and low and behold, even though it’s been over a year since my surgery, there’s still hope of my dreams coming true. It’s going to be a journey but I’m hopeful, happy and in a better space than I’ve ever been before.
Of course I want this! Of course the IVF process will go well! Of course I’m going to be a good mother! And I don’t care that we are not married yet because we both want this and I’m not living my life for what society thinks. What was I even thinking before?! Your mind can really be your own worst enemy.

Thank you Hayley for helping me shift my mind and my heart by replacing all my negative thoughts and doubts with love and hope.
Love and light, Sweet Butterfly. (Out of respect for her privacy, I changed her name)

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